Four Years Old

Dear Hudson,

Four years ago today my life changed in a way that I can't even describe.  You made me a mommy and for that I will forever be grateful.  Each day I'm proud to call you my son.  You have grown into such an amazing young boy.  You have a quirky little spunk that I love.  You love to make others happy (maybe a little too much), you love animals, playing outside, playing cars and getting crazy with daddy.  You get a look in your eye that tells me when it's time for a "time out" from life.  I know this look because I have the same one.  You are my mini me and for that I am grateful because I "get" you better than anyone else.  I'm sorry that I gave you my tendency to stress about the small things, want everything perfect, and only be able to function when everything is in order.  After all these years I'm just now beginning to let go of a few of these things.  You taught me how to do this and hopefully I can teach you.  You have become a wonderful big brother.  Despite having a hard time sharing your mommy you are finding out fast that Bennett is your biggest fan.  I'm so grateful that Bennett has such an amazing role model to follow through life.  I can't wait to see my boys years down the road.  Brothers are friends forever.  You look forward to preschool and our fun outings each day.  You love to play with your friends and are so gentle and kind.  The majority of your friends are girls and I think this was a blessing.  You have learned that girls and boys are equally as fun.  You can have just as much fun playing tea party and dress up as you can playing cars.  I love this about you.  You thrive with a routine and spin out of control without one (again, just like me).  Most days we stay on track and life is smooth.  When we don't stay on track, that night I find myself laying in bed with you and holding you in my arms telling you a calming story to help you forget about your worries. You definitely are my kid.  Thank you for being silly, dramatic, emotional, outgoing, friendly, cuddly and happy in life.  You are one of a kind and you are mine!  

Love,

Mommy